Well here we are again. At a time in life where you think you have everything figured out and you know what? Once again you lose your balance. You need to recalculate. You get sucked back in by the emotional vampires. How does this happen you wonder? You thought you had clearly established what is that called again ….a boundary you say? You worked so hard on those and you were so proud of yourself. LIttle by little your boundaries got crossed so insignificantly that you did not even pick up on it. You got lost again. You needed to step away. You needed to recalculate. Somehow you ended up with the life just sucked out of you. How can emotional stress take such a physical toll on my body? I knew something was wrong I just could not put a finger on it. I knew I had lost myself again. But how this time? I needed a break from people who were sucking the life out of me.
But you are made to feel that you are withdrawing from your loved ones. The messages you receive are…. “You are sick again”. Oh really who says so? “You are making us all miserable by watching you be so miserable”. I am perplexed. Who said I was miserable? In fact I became quite happy again when I separated myself from you. Those messages you hear you have heard before and the anxiety comes back rushing in with a vengeance. How does this help me get back to myself you wonder? So you separate yourself from those who are making you feel bad about yourself. You make a choice. You have to do it to save yourself. Once you do it you are able to take the power back. The anxiety goes away. Your head becomes clear. You focus on yourself. You choose to surround yourself by people who make you feel good. Not those who judge you and manipulate you with guilt. Your aura and your spunk return. You feel empowered and for once you know you have done the right thing in order to take care of you. Life will take turns that are unexpected and every woman on the face of this earth will need a time or two or three to step away from it all and rebalance. Figure out again what road to take. Is this the road that is making me happy or am I walking this road only to make others happy? Don’t beat yourself up if you take a little detour every now and again. I have come to learn this is just a part of life.
So my lesson this time is I choose me! If you make me pick between you and me I will choose me every time!